Weigh In

I can't believe that I actually lost weight this week. 

Starting:173.3
Week 1: 172.2
Loss: 1.1 pounds

um yay!!! Yesterday was CHRISTMAS! I ate Turkey, pie, stuffing, sweet potatoes... Seriously. but I didn't over eat! and I think it showed. I am so excited. I made a decision and I am sticking to it! This is great! I'm trying to be more aware of when I am eating since I tend to emotional eat or eat out of boredom.

Merry Christmas Day!

Everyone (my husband and daughter) is sleeping...but I am not. Is isn't that I'm not tired, it's just that I don't want to sleep the day away. If I lose weight this week it will be a MIRACLE! I'm not sure why I decided THIS week to "get healthy." Although THANKFULLY it helped keep my mind on task. The husband is doing a great job at keeping me accountable and asking if I've been eating within my calories. It is a great Christmas and since I didn't bake as much crap I don't have to kick myself every time I eat a treat! I will enjoy ONE piece of pie later! Merry Christmas!

Merry Christmas

Here we are, Christmas Eve! I dreamt of being thin and I woke up to ME. And though I AM a confident person I can't help but think about how confident I will be once I lose this extra weight. I'm pretty tired of the excuses people make for me.... "well, you JUST had a baby." Um no I didn't, that was a year and a half ago. And I didn't gain much weight during my pregnancy because I was still eating properly...it wasn't until after that I "let myself go." How I used to judge people who did this! I was especially hard on women I would see stuffing themselves with McDonald's as I was driving past on the road; STOP! Why are you doing that? Little did I know that in 3 years that would be me... Judgment is swift AND easy when it lays at the feet of someone else.

I'm starting The Shred. Not because I think it is an amazing workout, but it is a commitment.

All About the Cardio

I'm aiming for 4 days of hard cardio a week, three of them being running. My goal is to run a half marathon in 6 months. If THAT is the case I REALLY need to kick it in gear. In all my cheezynes I wrote my weight goal and the date of the races and taped them all over our house. It isn't that I don't want to lose weight, it's just that sometimes I'd rather eat a donut than a pear and my goals will help remind me of what I TRULY want. And I want to do this. Honestly, when I look in the mirror I feel sad, and I just don't want to feel that way anymore. Today's workout was HARD, but I did it. And I feel good about it. I don't know if anyone will ever read these posts but me. BUT, I need this. I need a place to write out my feelings. Where no one really knows me. I most likely won't share this blog with my family. I already have a family blog, and it isn't as if I want all my friends to know my weight, or how bad I look in my running skirt! bah. I'm thinking about doing Turbo Fire by Beach Body! I'm so excited to see results and to make good choices! I REALLY want to reach my first goal and get some new nail polish! Woot woot!

The Beginning

Dare I tell the truth? I used to be HOTT.

And then I had a baby. I used to run all the time and work out; I WAS healthy.

I feel frustrated. I don't know WHY I've let myself slide. I weigh about 40 pounds more NOW than I did in the picture above. It is ridiculous! I SAY I want to change...but then I don't. I make poor decisions and CONTINUE to make poor decisions. For reals folks. So I stepped on the scale.

173.3 pounds. WHAT? Seriously? I've been reluctant to start this blog. WHY? Because I haven't wanted to make the decision. I'm used to just losing weight when I feel like it.... but since having my daughter things are different. VERY different. So. It. Begins. OK. I am going to set me some serious goals. Woohoo!

Goal Weight: 135 Pounds
Pounds Needed to Lose:  38.3 Pounds

Goal 1: 165 - 3 New Bottles of Nail Polish
Goal 2: 155 - Cowboy Boots
Goal 3: 145 - Full body massage
Goal 4: 135 - Hair/Mani Pedi

Maybe the goal of being hot and healthy SHOULD be enough to get my bum moving, but thus far...it hasn't been. And this is the way I look.

I feel sad when I see this. I'm not going to weigh myself until next Sunday! YOWZA! So, healthy living HERE I COME!